My Life with Anxiety and how I’m Dealing with it
For most of my life I have suffered from anxiety. To be clear, it began when I was just a child. Most likely, my anxieties kicked in after the third child in my family, another girl, was born. She was born with a disability and because of that disability, she was nervous, fidgety and at times, obnoxious. To be honest, she was also funny and at times, a joy to be around. However, such times were minimal.
Anyway, my anxieties really kicked in during high school. With the normal everyday concerns in high school such as wanting good grades, looking good, jealousies and rivalries, it was a bit much. Then, college came along and of course, I went and again anxieties kicked in. I loved college but the confrontations and nervousness that was there, was a bit much. College went good and then marriage came next. Moving over 20 times in 40 some years was at the least, a challenge and at the most, unbearable. The constant packing up, getting ready to go and then moving into a completely new environment was challenging and unnerving. Most of these moves were military moves and so one just had to “grin and bear it.”
For me, the most challenging move was the military move to Germany. I never flew in a plane before and that first flight was something else. However, after the first hour, it was no problem. Looking back, I don’t know why I got so nervous! But, of course, the first time for anything can be stressful and challenging. Another anxiety provoking moment–well, it was more than a moment–was going for my master’s in Business. That occurred about 10 years ago. Now that I have a master’s in Business, I feel wonderful, it was the process of obtaining the master’s degree that was anxiety provoking. I got this degree online and that was O.K. but it was a lot of work, for sure!
Throughout the years, I have found several ways and methods to deal with anxiety and fears. One of those ways is deep breathing exercises. Everyday and especially at night, I breathe in slowly through my nose, hold the breath and then exhale through my mouth. I hold the breath for about 5 seconds before exhaling. This helps to calm my mind as well as my body. Another things I do everyday is to walk for at least an hour. This is also helpful because again, it calms my mind and body. I have also found reading to be great comfort, especially reading the Bible. There are so many truths in that book that I never get bored. For me, it is source of wisdom and a light that shines through the dark.
To conclude, anxiety has ruled my body and mind for a long time but I am quickly coming to the conclusion that there is no need for it. Anxiety, when you think about it, in most cases is man-made, unnecessary and harmful to the body and mind. There are so many ways that anxiety can be destroyed and one way is to write about it, as I have now. For anyone who suffers from this mental disorder, I say to them, “You don’t need it! Try one of the above methods and get rid of your anxiety today! No one should suffer from anxiety because it causes no good.